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[18 Jan 2006|09:32pm] |
this is how i dOoo.. i IGNORE.. its not that i want to.. its just how i deal.. im not ready to get attached again.. no no.
ahh im ready to leave.. Patrick im only your friend cause of your money.. now take me to HAWAII so this can be over with... oh by the way Happy Birthday.. sorry that PMSing got in the way of dinner. i would have bitched you out for no reason so i guess it was a good thing that i wasnt there.. although i might have already yelled at you earlier today but you still love me.. right?? ahahahaha.. anyways
i miss living on my own.. yes my housesitting gig is over, but they are leaving again in Feb for two weeks so i will have my freedom once again.. haha no juss kidding.. i just like to come home to the dogs and peace and quiet.
this week is going by so damn slow.. actually i think its cause i had a four day weekend, yes four.. and it was GREAT. and im ready for the weekend to come again.
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[17 Nov 2005|01:42pm] |
so hmm im way too tired to do anything but im here at the house im housesitting and i NEED to clean. this house is MESSY! well not really.. but i still need to tidy it up a lil before they get back tomorrow. i never want to have cats, EVER!
lastnight, i was wayyyyyy out of it.. holy. and i did a lot of THINKING and a lot of talking on the phone. It was fun.. but not really, the thinking part got to me. That shit makes you think.. but yea Im just gonna give up.. on everything.. i dont want to but i hate feeling like this, i really do.. im frustrated, mad, sad, and uh i just have too much on my mind right now.. but the thing is what do i really want? I DON'T KNOW! uhhhhhhhhhhhh on another note, im really excited to go to Seattle NOW and take a break: January 5-17th.. i believe.. maybe i will stay for good? who knows? im really considering it. Marielou is moving there and everything and everyone i left and i miss is there.. and it will still feel like home. haha yea.. i miss work even though i was there yesterday.. i miss it, it keeps me from thinking bout stuff and occupied, but im here writing this and im gonna come back and read this and feel stupid. haha oh well.. i do this a lot.
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[13 Nov 2005|10:36pm] |
So i never write in here, ever.. thought i should start again..
well nothing new happening in my life.. except that i actually found a guy in Juneau that i really like and find attractive.. its amazing. but no we are not dating. and we are both ok with that.. i dunno what you would call us though.. just been hanging out with him lately and it feels good.. oh i miss him right now. well enough with that..
i got way too drunk last night.. it was fun though.. i needed it. him and I drunk at the same time is not a good combo. we have stupid arguements and make up then freaking get pissed at eachother again.. its annoying..
I need to get my passport renewed and put more money in the bank.. im broke. i need to tan.. im getting pale. sorry random thoughts there.
Seattle sounds real good right now.. i want him to come with but whatever either way im going.. dunno when yet but im going.
Work has been really good lately.. i actually have a set schedule now and i like it. Been getting good tips even though its winter and hmm its been great.. well im off to do some homework.. its a must cause i havent really been going to class lately.. bad TIna! k peace out.
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[31 May 2005|08:56pm] |
ok so here's my dream from last night:
me and a guy friend (who i've grown to like in real life) are driving around and i guess u could say canoodling as well. so i managed to ask him if he liked me n i get no response? so i get all mad at him the rest of the car ride.. then all of a sudden a couple of my friends jump into my dream and me and the guy are sitting in the back seat canoodling once again. n yada yada yada so we're all having fun and i make a move on him thinking u kno that we kinda have a thing for eachother so i proceeded to give him a kiss, but he backs away.. n i think to myself "what the hell is that about?" then i hear my fucking alarm go off.. it was going off for like 20 minutes.. wow. so hmm i dunno wut the hell that dream meant.. im kinda into that whole study of dreams thing so im kinda curious..
eh i dunno, im kinda feeling him but kinda not.. i don't see him too often so there's really not a lot of feelings building up oppose to if i was to see him more.. so i guess that's a good thing?? wutever... though i do miss cuddling wit him... *sigh*
anyways so the weekend was alright.. u kno relaxed.. friday worked..it was damn fucking SLOW!! hung out wit nicole had a lovely time wit her at home and the valley rest. talked about juss wutever.. it was great to juss sit there talk n relax for hrs.. saturday i was off THANK GOD!! me nicole rob n pat had a lovely lunch together outside at TWISTED FISH.. twas very fun.. then me n nicole proceeded to walk downtown n found my favorite shop!! it was like a vintage shop! then hung around my house w/ my lil cousins from Wisconsin.. took them out to eat... cute lil ones i tell ya! Sunday SLOW day at work n then we had a cleaning party at the restaurant.. as nicole would say "don't call it a PARTY" haha yea all we did was paint.. that became quite a work out.. too bad i didn't get to hang out wit my hubby cause that would have made it ALL BETTER!! haha jk nicole! (mine n nicole's inside joke) monday stopped by the hotel to see what everyone was up to n holy shit the kitchen was a MESS! thank GOD i didn't stay for it ALL.. yea blah blah blah wut else?
oh yea so my sister asked me if i wanted to move in wit her in her new apartment.. i think that is such a GREAT idea!!!!!! im pretty sure i will do it so then it will be an easier move to SEATTLE or CORVALLIS if i still want to go.. YAY! she asked PAT if she wanted to move in as well so me n him can split up rent.. GOOD OR BAD IDEA?? i dunnoo
oK TINA OUT!
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[11 May 2005|09:06pm] |
*sigh*
Wow my parents seriously think that I have nothing productive to do with my time.. are u fucking kidding me?? im at work like 24/7.. n they think im a lazy ass.. wow 8 hrs on ur feet constently moving and cleaning around is LAZY?? SInce WHen?? n the only time i get to rest they expect me to be up and running.. They have probably been thinking that i've been out wit my friends having fun when really i was at work bustin my ass.. tuesday was my only day off from a 7 day straight work schedule.. n next week will probably be the same since my sister is goin to Vegas.. its not that im complaining that i work too much (i don't even mind it) its juss that my parents think less of me.. n that's sad.. they probably don't even kno that im a full time waitress and baker.. If they only knew how much i do.. if they only knew...
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[26 Apr 2005|12:12am] |
I LOVE JUNEAU!!! so its been really nice out this past few days and oh its been GREAT!!!!
this weekend went by really fast.. n i really don't know what happened during the week, but work comes to mind wit all the caterings we've been doin.. holy shit it's been hella busy but FUN at the same time..
so friday came by fast.. twas really pumped to go to the dance cause i've been hella waiting to shake my ass, and to bump and grind.. we did the normal routine (me and Lala anyways) got some food to munch on while we got crunk in her car hahahahhahaaha.. got pretty buzzed but good enough Oh hell the dance was hella FUN!!!! me swinging my hair like no other and putting on a show for everyone.. it's my one night to be sluty n Oo i went all out.. haha n then the party had to end so we headed to the valley n stayed there till like 2am "spooning and forking" each other (haha inside joke wit yeri n lala)..
waking up on saturday was not that of a hastle.. im actually getting used to having 4-6 hrs of sleep everyday.. so went to work n it was hella SLOW!! oh yea forgot to say that I'll be waitressing on the weekends now and probably full time (i HOPE).. gonna make hella money this summer if i do!! well at the end of the day headed out to skater's cabin for a lil bbq. LOVED IT! oh gosh everyone was juss hella funny scarying eachother.. we didn't leave til like midnight.. juss chilled by the bon fire and juss laughed our asses off...
sunday work was fun wit NESSERS, PAtricia, ROy and Maranda.. but it was really slow cause it was nice and sunny out n people were probably outside doing their own thang. at the end me roy and glen had a water fight in the kitchen.. twas very fun and refreshing.. then spent the day stopping by twin lakes and then to lala's n watched napoleon dynamite.. then headed to the bowling alley.. waited for nessers to come so we can bowl.. she came but we never bowled, eh oh well I still had fun.. then all of us went back to lala's n watched the excorsist n high rollers.. ended up sleeping over at lala's.. woke up had to take dillon to school then went back to sleep n woke up at 2pm!!! dang that's wut i call sleeping in.. wow i haven't done that in like forever!!
today was my last day of Small Business Management.. YESSSSS!! im glad that class is over.. it was always fun the first hour but 3 hrs in that class every monday evening was HORRIBLE!!
DAMN its fucking coming all back to me.. i don't want it to but i can't help it! freaking-a!
uh wutever peace ya'll
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[16 Apr 2005|10:54pm] |
Ok so yea i guess i will update since i haven't in awhile.. hmmm well i haven't had anything exciting happen to me lately, bummer.. but that work has been really really really fun, don't kno why..
yesterday i went to the drill team show.. AWW the GIRLS were sooo DAMN GOOD!! especially my lil sister, carrie, and shella.. those are my GIRLS!! then hung out at the valley rest as usual.. was gonna head to a party but it was all the way at North Douglas.. and another one but i really wasn't feeling like goin to that so decided to go home.. surprisignly got home before my dad.. wow wut a shocker!! i usual get home n get bitched at for coming home so damn late.. GO ME!
today it was my first saturday as a waitress.. haha im so funny.. i juss basically guessed wut sides go wit the meal n if it didn't even have that option i gave it to them anyways.. everyone got free toast from me today!! breakfast was aight but lunch was dead as fuck! i don't know wut it was, but tips were very very very good.. can't help it but damn im good.. haha that's cockiness for ya!
wow a saturday night at home.. its actually not that bad. hmm. partying gets old but i miss it.. nuttin really happening worth goin to.. so i guess i ain't missin anythang. but i can't wait til this friday.. awww snap its on!! YAYAYAYAY!! im excited!
CLOTHES.. im broke.. i need more n more n more!! fuck fuck fuck.. one last shopping spree.. ahhh no i can't.. i dunno.. damn fucking catalogs that-come-wen-u've-already-ordered-from-them.
well im out.. that's all folks!
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[04 Apr 2005|09:38pm] |
this weekend has been really relaxing.. wow.
i feel alot better from my last post.. i haven't cried since so i guess everything going on with the parentals have gone away (hopefully) well lets see first i haven't seen or talked to them this whole weekend. maybe that's why? but yea wutever it seems like its gone away.. my dad was in a good mood with me today.. so it has.. but along the way it will rise up again. huh.. im ready for it.. hahaha
yay i get paid tomorrow..
wow happy mood today..
yea so this whole weekend was spent at the hotel n wit pat... wow.. i had to put up wit him this WHOLE weekend.. haha jk pat u kno i love u!!
friday we chilled at the hotel wit shella.. i got a memo saying that there was a dance so we got really excited, but by the time we were all ready there wasn't one after all. fucking-A! so we juss hung out in the hotel watched some porn.. haha u kno how we do! jk.. yea the paris video was not as good as everyone says it to be.. someone made a poor choice of porn downloads.. haha
saturday practically did the same thing.. but shella taught me how to crochet. my new hobbie!! so im gonna make me some scarves, hats, bags, everything!! yay! then we headed to the movies to watch sin city.. good choice!
sunday made mad bank as a waitress!! woo hoo!! yea then hung around the hotel. wow my job is becoming my life.. NOOO!!! haha no i love my job..
so even after all this relaxing and no drama in my life, i still want to move!! OMG u don't even kno.. everyone's gonna be in seattle! haha pat, shella, nicole, lala, n moose.. holy crap that's gonna be sooooo much fun!
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[30 Mar 2005|10:16pm] |
i hate feeling like this.. feeling like im not loved.. wutever..
im such an emotional person.. i hate crying (no actually like it) but that's wut i do best.. all the things goin on with the PARENTALS, GUYS, and juss about ME in n out.. i hate it.. this is the kind of things that make me want to move even more.. juss drop everything and leave, like start a new life but still be me.. erase all the things that make me feel like throwing up.. letting go of everything n starting all over again!!! n they expect me to explain why i want to move.. fuck U! haha im gonna regret saying that wen i get all calmed down n shit but wutever, that's how im feeling at the moment n i mean it! fuck all ya!! i hate left hanging.. that's y i don't want to get attached n left to deal wit my emotional self.. uhhh why am i feeling like this?? gosh damnit.. i HATE IT!!!!
i NEED a vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really juss want to scream
today is like the worst day.. i don't want to be at work but in my room crying.. that sounds good.. am i the only one that likes to cry?? im soo weird.. the funny thing is that no one has really seen me cry before.. odd..
yea ok i guess im done bitching.. maybe i should take that bootycall offer. ;)
n oh pat n jesse are making my day.. n roy too.. he thinks im the hottest andes sister.. haha awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
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[27 Mar 2005|08:44pm] |
so yea chillin here wit the FAM at the moment.. thought i would write. so yea weekend was FUN in a weird way.. well friday kinda skipped class but yea oh well its juss math.. im good at it so no need. went to stations of the cross that was exciting.. saw some seals n the place was GORGEOUS!!! UH cant wait til summer n camping n hanging out next to water.. YAY!! but yea then went to the movies.. saw GUESS WHO!! twas a really good movie.. Bernie Mac's role kinda reminded me of my dad.. cause that is how he's totally gonna be when i bring a boy home. haha especially a white boy!! LOVE THEM WHITE BOYS THOUGH!! it's not like he's racist he juss likes to keep it in the race. but when i see him accepting bret in the fam i love him even more!!!!!!! AWWW! but yea then went to my house n chilled like usual.. *sigh*
then saturday worked my ass off like no other. 10 hrs of BAKING.. do u guys kno how that feels.. uh i was bout to DIE! yea but i looked hella cute in my pink chef coat!! long story short: Angelica is the BEST.. she made it for me wit my name, T-SPOON (my kitchen name, inside joke), sewn into it!! yea CUTE!! anyways.. stayed home. shella pat n dillon stopped by n kiddnapped me! went to a bon fire over at some tryson kids house by the beach.. that was really fun n chill! im all giddy now! u kno why PAT!! haha uh i hate it! but for some reason i donn't want to be all giddy for the reason i have.. yes it is confussing but wutever, it's me anyways.. but yea i dunno i dunt want to like him but i do but i don't but i do. yea yea yea.. i think he should juss stay with his exgirlfriend.. or is it his girldfriend?? i duno the boy is confusing.. eh we'll see wut happens! so yea the bonfire was really FUN: pat trying to murder the trees, shella trying to warm up her ghetto booty, me n her gettin together to be TA (tits n ass)!! hahaha i love that girl! over all, a very good night to end the weekend..
aww dillon is leaving on Thursday for two weeks!! im gonna miss him oh so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my mom is like drunk or something.. haha she's getting annoying, but she kinda reminds me of me when im DRUNK! hahaha
ok bye bitches!
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[20 Mar 2005|11:36pm] |
so heres the usual update of my life:
so this whole week was spring break.. ehh.. that's all i could say.. i've been working all week not had a day off in seven days.. that's a good thing people cause then i have overtime which means more MONEY!! whoo hoo! yea got paid today thats always gooood.. i think im gonna spend some shopping online.. my last shopping spree people. PROMISE. (maybe).. yea
so friday i worked for a lil bit then hung out wit lalaine.. juss went everywhere as usual then stopped by the game before we went to the movies. it was regionals n damn was it packed n hella intense.. cheering was fun too.. "my mom can beat up your mom" haha quoted from the famous Caroline.. yea thats was fun.. wanted to stay for the boys game but we had to go to the movies.. i heard it was GOOD.. overtime.. but ketchikan won.. ehh the Ring 2 was aight.. could have waited for it to come out on dvd..
the next morning, since the ketchikan team was staying at the hotel, the coaches n players were all talking bout the big fight after the game.. ALL MORNING!! but yea it was exciting to find what exactly happened. hehe.. im such an ease dropper! but had the worst morning ever at work cause i did something really BAD!! i almost cried.. but by the end of the day i was ok.. hmm then went home.. fell asleep then pat n krystal came over n watched the INCREDIBLES!! LOVED IT!!! twas very CUTE!
today worked brunch.. it was fun.. not the busy but very steady juss took all the tables cause Gel didn't want any so that was fun.. blah blah blah.. went home.. suppose to do homework but fell alseep n got woken up by PAtty D. he was over wit krystal, dill , and michella..ate dinner here then played some skategories.. haha Shella was so funny thinking bout random things like "low rise thongs" n "edible underwear" it was sooo funny!!! but yea then played some card games.. blah so now im here cause pat wants me to up date.. k im gonna head out now n DO some HOMEWORK.. bahhhyye!
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[06 Mar 2005|10:36am] |
OMG people i am soooo freakin tired.. i haven't gone to sleep yet n yea u can imagine how tired i am!!
ok so my weekend went something like this..
friday: rest day
saturday: went out n partied!! (no not really)
sunday: recovering from the night before
Friday i worked.. it was actually not that bad.. haha.. at first i was disappointed that i was working on a friday night.. but i thought to myself that this will be a good time for me to catch up on homework n not party.. so yea work went really well but the bad thing was that i didn't even do homework!! freakin-a.. pat n nicole stopped by.. that was fun.. we united n became the light bulb team.. twas awesome! *how many front desk employees does it take to unscrew a light bulb??* hahahhahahahahahahaha too bad it took us like forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank gosh pat n nikki were there to help me out or else i wouldn't have done it! hahaahaha maybe i shouldn't get a raise after all.. speaking of raises i got paid today1! yay! wow that was totally not connected! but yea so got off at midnight n wasn't really ready to go home.. but went home anyways.. catch up on my beauty sleep!
So Saturday came n i was OFF!! whoo hoo.. first saturday off ever! that was exciting.. went shopping for my friend pam's babyshower.. went to a party.. eh that was ok.. we danced n had lil to drink.. blah.. not quite exciting as the others.. um so we headed off to another one.. eh that was ok as well.. then head to my friend aaron's n jonathan's.. they were playing poker as usual! i want to learn how damnit! i LOVE mature well educated responsible men! hmm yea blah blah blah blah
so i got home at like 3 this morning.. thought i would juss pass out on my bed, but somehow i couldn't fall alseep.. so i lay there for about two hours wit my eyes closed hoping i would doze off but NOOOOOOOO!! so instead i got up texted a couple of people n thought i should juss get ready for work.. blah
im giving up rice for as long as i can.. damn do u kno how hard that will be?
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[02 Mar 2005|10:46pm] |
ok so im TOTALLY bored at work.. i thought it was 11 but it's really 10.. damnit two more freakin hours!!!
so nothing new has happened since the last time i blogged (is that a word??) except that another week of school has started.. but this week has gone by really fast.. so that's really really good! tomorrow is already thursday!! wow! hmmm yada yada yada yada yada yada yada yada yada yada yada.. i really have nothing to do!!! uh .. i should read but no i don't feel like it.. so im contemplating whether i should work friday night n have saturday morning off or have friday night off n work saturday morning?? but oh wait i still need to find out if justine wants to switch.. other than that i dunno what to do.. hmm.. wuts happening this friday night anyways? i can work friday night n then go out wen i get off which is at midnight.. but hmm who the fuck is sober enough to come get me at work?? hahahahahaha.. but really i don't mind working friday.. it's probably good for me anyways.. lay off the party scene. n READ n do HOMEWORK!!! arghhhh.. i HATE SCHOOL! but yea.. someone give me a reason to go out nowadays.. i should juss stay home this whole weekend.. hmm lets see if that will last.. hahaha
im so incredebly nice to the guests here! i should get a raise.. u think?
SPRING BREAK: CANADA??? hmm that would be soo bad for my health n my bank account!!
ok ya'll im out.. boredom has gone away!
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[26 Feb 2005|11:21am] |
ok so yea i juss got this livejournal even though im still gonna use my blogs on myspace. but wutever.. at least i will write in here once..
yea im chillin here at work hella tired.. not much sleep last night let me tell ya. so last night was fun. umm lets see wut i did yesterday.. so i went to work for a bit. fyi: i work at the a front desk at a hotel n restaurant as a baker/waitress/hostess.. work went well i guess eh. then headed to class. dang i juss realized that i've been skipping too many classes. but from wut it looks like im still passing.. GO ME! then hmm went home n got ready for the night. went over to lala's ate dinner n went to pick up her grandma n niece.. aww she is oh sooo cute! lala wanted to buy a new cell phone over at radio shack but it was closed! met a friends cousin that is in town.. Ooo hella fine! there was suppose to be sumtin goin on at his house but its postponed.. found out bout another party but it was a lil too early so we decided to stop by at the bball game for like 30 minutes. then headed over to the party. it wasn't crackin at first cause me n lala were the only girls there.. but aww the guy who held it was oh soo very NICE! then more peeps showed.. didn't really want to drink cause there was a dance that i wanted to go to n my driver was getting all wasted so i was gonna be DD that night. but it was getting late n i was pretty sure we weren't gonna make it so i was juss like fuck it im drinking tonight n oh the rest of the night was juss crazy.. in the end got a phone call from the friend's cousin.. wanted to go chill wit us that night.. i wanted to but lala needed to go home.. a BIG bummer! i wanted to go see him.. huhhhhh.. so we head home.. I also wanted to stop by moose’s house cause yea wanted to chill wit them for a bit.. but wutever.. I got home wayyyyyyyyy tooooooo early!!! Ended up having drunk phone calls for hours.. haha that’s why im so f-tired! But yea dang there’s hella things goin on tonight!!! YAY! Alrighty then im out im gonna add more friends!!. Haha this is exciting but I need some help designing my journal.. anyone?
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